When the student is ready the Shadow Teacher appears.
Because we have not faced the core illusion of separation, we suffer.
It hurts. There’s nothing like a big dose of agony to get our attention.
Fear rattles the cage screaming “FREE ME PLEASE!”
Due to our endless devotion to fear as a way to evolve we invoke shadow healers into our lives. People who enter our field who are committed to deception disguised as truth. They make great truth-lie-truth sandwiches. They come in many designs from the most charming to the despicable but they away come in as a direct match to your favorite flavor of fear. So illuminating they are, revealing the price of all that you crave and all that you despise.
Shadow teachers are unaware of the real lessons they bring. If they understood their role in your life they would be conscious. Consciousness doesn’t cast a shadow. Conscious teachers are masters of Compassion & Wisdom. To expose the lies within you, like great magicians, they can use illusion to reveal the truth. Out of love, in the end, all tricks are revealed, full transparency, nothing to hide. The illusion lasts just long enough to show you that you bought into it in the first place. They attract others in a responsible way. It’s not glamorous but it’s real.
Shadow teachers on the other hand, get lost in the magic trick itself. They are restless and often repel others after the initial attraction has worn off. They end up alone burning through friends, partners, students, even family falls away. The have to keep on the run, shape-shifters, retreat junkies, entrepreneurial gypsies. What they serve up and what’s on the menu are two different things. Not in a paradoxical way but in a way that says, “HEY SOMETHING’S NOT ADDING UP HERE?”
The great lesson of the shadow teacher is contrast, that Ah-Ha moment where you finally see what they have been trying to show you all along; your pride, your fear of being alone, poor, unworthy, etc.
When you have identified a shadow healer in your life it’s best to honor them and yourself with confession, forgiveness and open appreciation. To call a shadow person out is a death threat. Truth is crippling to what they thought they were and what they thought they had to offer. Can they follow you out into the light of day? Sure. Will they? Not many. They love the drama. It hides the trauma within. So they focus on how screwed up you are so they don’t have to look in the mirror. Thank them for being so illuminating of your shadows, such great examples of what NOT to be, excellent imposters, faux-teachers that teach you what’s real.
In this way, the habit of fear-based living can break and LOVE can shine through the cracks they seem to have made in you. Turn 180 degrees and walk in the opposite direction out of the mind games and into heart of Love. They will tell you, if you were really (filling in whatever word describes what you want to be the most) you would stay and play their game. We need them until we don’t. We have all been one to someone at sometime. Walk into the sun. The courageous ones will follow.
Dear Shadow Teacher,
Thank you for showing up for me when I was not ready for a better way. At least I had you.
Thank you for giving me the chance again and again to see how I bow at the feet of fear.
Thank you for ripping from me all that I assumed I was, stripping me naked and leaving me alone on the side of the road, in the cold, in the spooky part of town.
Thank you for taking me on a tour of scar-city, forcing me to choose between the things, people and experiences I love.
Shadow Teacher, thank you for the exorcism of that haunting whisper, “You my dear, are not enough.”
Thank you for showing me what I am not willing to tolerate any more.
I grieve all the times I couldn’t see what I see in myself now. I grieve that you wont share in this seeing in yourself with me.
Everything you trigger in me is an opportunity to see the path away from you. Know that I walk away out of love.
When did you discover an interest in healing?
My Journey began when I was very young.
Seeing the conflict in my world, within my own family and in my school; I was born with a deep desire to question everything. What is going on here? What is God? What is Love? What is True? What is really REAL? How would I know? I had to know.
I had times in my life when I fell into great suffering and sadness as a girl, a daughter, a young woman, an actress, a wife and as a mother devoted to her son. I became interested in healing as a way to overcome the pain of self-sabotage, marital divorce and to make peace with this world and my experience in it.
What transformations have you experienced through your healing journey?
It’s important to understand that healing and transformation is not a destination. It is an on-going ever-present expression of unfolding self and mastering the Self and the No Self. Through the consistent willingness to witness my self and the life I’ve manifested, healing has happened. By healing I mean a capacity to be and express ones self as whole, less fragmented or limited in perception and experience. For instance, as a teen I was badly bulimic for 9 years. It was by finally facing that empty seemingly bottom-less pit of fear within, that I discovered that emptiness is where the magic happens. The empty void is your friend. I also transformed my chronic back pain of 7 years into a pain free spine. I’ve healed low-self esteem and I’ve given birth to the conscious nature that was always there hiding behind the veils of my small me-ness. In the process I’ve learned to manifest with great skill, I’ve experienced un-earthly bliss and best of all I’ve stepped into my calling without fear or attachment. The calling of the Revealer.
What type of healing do you do?
Well “I” don’t, “do” healing. Healing is a natural by-product of Conscious Awareness.
Calling on all that has helped me evolve, I offer up what worked for me. After 12 years practicing and studying self-empowerment, spirituality, yoga and meditation I ended up mentoring with a Filipino Mystic and Healer and at the same time studying daily with a Tibetan trained Lama. Together I was transformed through these distinctly masculine and feminine approaches to awakening. The combined result is what I offer to others in the form of hands-on energetic work, guided visualisations, meditation, inner inquiry, clairvoyant readings, sat sang and intuitive strategic consultations, shaktipad and more.
How did you develop your abilities and methods?
Whatever worked on me in the thrashings of my dark nights and in the illuminations of the light is what I use.
I have embody more and more what is called “The Skilful Means” to intuitively know what someone needs in order to heal. If it works on a few you can be sure it will work on thousands more. We are more alike then we realise. Out of all that I have found it’s the combination of Conscious Inquiry (asking the right questions at the right moment) and listening with a willingness to live the answer with the totality of one’s being that brings the quickest results.
What do you want people to know about Inner Guidance?
I offer in-depth and personal guidance as well as on-going support to those who come to see me which has resulted in over 1500 people now experiencing themselves in a new and more holistic way. This work with individuals, couples, families, groups, immersions and trainings is what has become the Inner Guidance Institute, an on-line seedling center for self-illuminating offerings.
What transformations have you witnessed in clients/people you have worked with?
I’ve got the best job in the world! I’m privileged and honoured to be able to see into the depth of others’ systems and offer them the invitation of liberation. I’ve witnessed more than once, rape victims taking back their power and bowing to that experience, letting it go FOR GOOD. I’ve seen families heal old karmic wounds and give each other permission to love and accept one another in new healthy ways again. I’ve seen a woman stand up out of her wheelchair 7 days later and now she drives herself to the gym. I’ve seen a Guru confess their sins of jealousy and misuse of power and return to their students in a more humble and transparent way. I’ve seen a mother commune with her teenage daughter who died and seeing the reasons why she was able to move on with joy. I’ve seen a Muslim father give his ½ Muslim daughter permission to remove her headdress. I’ve seen her shower him with love.
How do you prepare for your sessions and workshops?
I set the intention to have no agenda other than to have no agenda. I disappear into the source of all that is. I listen, pay attention and take note of what inspires and serves others the most.
What do your mentoring and training experiences involve?
They involve you showing up 100% for yourself as we get into a deep line of inner inquiry that reveals the motives behind your actions. In a field of unconditional love, I’m here 1000% for you! Let’s connect.
What has your greatest realisation or learning been?
The ongoing mastery of the living paradox of everything, nothing and the path that leads right back to NOW. Fear is only Love waiting to be embraced consciously.
Do you have one tip to share for happiness and wellbeing in everyday life?
Yes, every time you catch yourself acting out of lack of trust, fear, obligation or unconscious sacrifice STOP. Give yourself a little love pat and say, “Oh, I’m doing it again. It’s ok, I don’t need to do that. I’m good.” Take a deep breath in, exhale and respond anew.
What is your favourite music/artists to listen to?
The realms beyond this dimension. There is no music on earth like it. But some come kinda close. I love music created in highest intention. Nature is probably my favorite artist. I do like the power of the human voice.
What are your plans for the future, evolution of what you do?
I have a few opportunities, one is to open a healing center in BALI. It’s going to change the way we think about healing and humanity and it might also just be a nice place to have tea. That seems to be the plan working through me. I’ll be hosting more training programs in other countries and I’m finishing a book.
Anything else you would like to mention or share?
January 15th to 25th 2017
Inner Dance & Inner Guidance Facilitator’s Certification Training.
Come join if you are interested in a profound experience that will give you even more tools and deeper understandings to shift and to serve the world with.
© Lightening Magazine 2016